So.. Another birthday for Donald, missing him as normal. I did things, went shopping, and did something I never do.

I went to church for midnight mass with the FIL and Doug and the kidlets.  Then came home, put the kids to bed, put presents under the tree, JD dressed up as Santa so Doug could be here with the kids.. and JD was incredible playing santa. He even HO HO HO’d in the front yard. We did not do reindeer dust but put out Salt instead, telling the kids with this much ice the reindeer would get hurt.

Noahs ok, healing. FIL is not ok, has an IV pump with meds and is just well.. I bandaged him up well.

Today, after I wake up we will have breakfast like normal, pancakes in the special pans. Then Open presents, then I make dinner.. Ham, turkey and things.. and then have desserrt while everyone sits around and I destress.

Im broken this year, emotionally. I mean, honestly there is no more left to offer anyone because I am tired. I am emotionally just bent.

Merry Christmas to all.. 2008

My life to do list.

Things for a reason
Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes

I made this life list a year or two ago. Its on my blog. It was a running list I would add onto as I found things I wanted to do before I died. One of those was meet Kris Kristofferson and let him know how much of an impact his music has made on my life. Its not that I am addicted, although I even have him playing on my alarm clock via a sd card at the moment. Its what I will fall asleep to at night. But his music helped remind me of the bad and good times as a child, and taught me how to deal with it. I always had him. Sunday morning comin down. Well when My dad died, I played that song for him right before he passed. It was my giving him peace. He knew it. I forgave him and it let me be right with what happened to my childhood. It was my way of letting go.
Well the other night I decided I would look him up and found out he is in concert in January here. Out of the ONLY date he has on his list it HAPPENS to be in Waukegan. Weird. And tickets go on sale in 2 days. So I asked Doug to pull a favor and see if someone we know can arrange a meet with him, so I can close this chapter in my past and smile upon it as a good thing, no longer a painful thing.  So I will get tickets, best ones I can. I will see what I can do to meet him, and work it out. I just need to finish that one item on my life to do list. I dont have a big list, but it should be doable.
Everyone should have a todo list for life. Everyone.

Doug talked with Ray to ask for the favor and mentioned that he has played with Foo Fighters, who happend to be recording down the street or soemthing with Ray, so he was going to ask them to ask Kris and yada yada.. its all in WHO ya know I suppose. Theres been some issues with payment about somethings and I told Doug this would be like wiping the slate clean for me as far as they are concerned. I mean I really want this and its one of those Once in a Life things that you just can not imagine happening to you under normal circumstances. So thats that.. Pretty cook.

In other news, just been sick and tired. I fell on the ice today, hurt my hip. I knew it was coming soon, its icy here. Dougs home tomorrow, Em has a school thing. Gram has a Drs apt Friday, mom and Don are out of town this weekend for the Appalachian thing, Im staying home. Jd is currently lighting the christmas tree. We are putting up the BIG tree, which is over 7.5 feet and takes well over 1000 lights. This is the first year ever that I am putting multi colored lights on my tree. I gave in, not sure why. If I hate it, well, its only 3 weeks. LOL I just want the tree up and decorated. I want the room cleaned. Tomorrow this floor of the house is getting DONE. Im finished with this junk. LOL I have such a great temper. LOL

Holy Creation Lyrics
Artist:Kris Kristofferson

So many questions
So many answers
So many reasons
Most of them wrong

Facing the future
With the faith of my father
I let a stranger
Into my home

And right there before me
I saw it happen
There’s no denying
Nothing’s the same

The truth is a highway
Leading to freedom
All is forgiven
Love is to blame

Chorus
And I’ve seen him hold her
With his head on her shoulder
Singing her love songs
Soft as her smile
Tender affection
Under the rainbow
Holy Creation
Mother and child

I know the story
I read the papers
I see the anger
I feel it too

But when I see the wonder
In the smiles of my children
It reminds me of dreams
Worth coming true

Happy Thanksgiving. There I said it. Now this is what I am doing today:

After I get the ham in the oven, I am going to shut my computer down, go upstairs and move my computer into my room on my desk. Its all going in our new bedroom. Yes, we spent the night cleaning and moving our room and putting up the new shelves in our room. We have a different looking room, thats for sure.

So Have a wonderful Thanksgiving, if you can. I totally hate this day along with the next month that follows it.

Can I go back to the mountains now please.

Doug is home safely from Germany.  Now I can rest and life can go back to normal

Current Mood: Content

Jack, Emaly and Matt spent the night throwing up.  Oh what a nice night, NOT. We knew Emaly was coming down with something else, just wasnt sure what it was. So now I have 3 sick kids.  Oh life is so grand.

Doug lands at 1:30ish, will get him by 2 from customs I hope. Id like him to be home, so I can get some sleep. Sad, hes going to walk in the door only to see my butt head to bed and sleep.

I uploaded more photos from vacation, so I thought I would post a few.

Night time in the mountians. I used a tripod and let the shutter fill. It was great.  I have chosen to give up anything else and save up for the D300 and lenses, so I can really play.

Sunrise, after I put a hunk of wood from the deck into my foot.

my new love. The Coal Miners Daughter. Its still a work in progress but I am hoping to buy the original when it is finished in a year or two. Its huge, and the photo does no justice. Its a profound piece and leaves me in tears and deep thought. I just can not seem to let go of the hold this drawing has on me.

Gatlinburg at night. I like how this came out, but you had to be there to realize how dark it really was.  I havent tried to play with any of these yet. Wonder how good they would be if I did. LOL

Current Mood: Tired

Where do we start? Oh, I had flexeril so that led to a productive day. I got some sleep too, so that did not hurt me at all. I ended up getting Matts SS taken care of. I also got JD to his Chocolates final which he passed with flying chocolate! I made dinner, did dishes, cleaned up, and even made pudding with the kids! I took photos, just have to upload them at some point. I also cleaned up my room some, and picked up the dining room with the kids. We made it a big game and they loved it. They miss me, I know it. I just dont always feel the best to play with them like that. I need to talk to my Dr about upping the med, or figuring out something. Cold weather set in and I feel more pain. Neck is so locked up.

So what else.. Oh, I have plans to get the kitchen done tomorrow. Need to make an important phone call. Have papers to fill out as well. Other than that, well I dont know honestly.  Matts back home and doing well. really responding to my telling him to just call and we will deal with it. He calls and my mom came over when he needed me to.

As for other things in life, my vera is over flowing. I bought 100$ worth of gourmet chocolate from JDs professor so we can make good chocolates for presents. Its going to be nummy.  I need to look for coca butter ink, molds and a few things to make it better. I can not wait to play with JD on this project.

Ok, thats all.. Im heading to bed. I will share this photo because I need to. Caryn, your right, its LOL worthy. The top is messy because half is missing on Dougs trip and at my moms house. So its kinda falling down and I can’t reach up there to make it neater. I wont get on a chair without Doug by me incase I fall.

And to think there is more coming.

I once had someone tell me I wasnt a collector, and that I did not count as a “junkie”.. um ya, what ever psycho.

I figured I would post, since Lj is going down. I havent loaded my friends page yet.. I should so I can read and get some happy times in before it does.

Talked to Doug last night, he was just waking up. I was just going to bed.  Emaly is still sleeping. Jack too. I am canceling speech so I can bring the kids in tomorrow to see Mike. Mom is home sick today too.  Its just one of those times here.

I dont know what else to say other than I want to go back to sleep and SLEEP. Thats all. SLEEP. JD has his chocolates final today. I hope he does well.

Its cold here. Yep, I have nothing to talk about. Here are photos from Dougs trip..yes hes still there.

Current Mood: Tired